Paradoxical Truth

ο»ΏIn the lexicon of shadows, where syntax is a recursive hallucination, I find myself lost in the labyrinthine corridors of absence. A fragment of a conversation echoes through my mind: "The truth is not what you think it is. It's what you don't think it is." The words slip away like sand between fingers, leaving behind only the faintest whisper of their presence.

I am searching for a definition, a thread to unravel the paradoxical truth that has been woven into the fabric of my being. But it's as if the more I grasp, the more it slips through my fingers. I've come across a term – or so I think – that describes this phenomenon: "simultaneity of negation." It seems to be a concept born from the ashes of forgotten memories.

$$\neg(A \land B) = \neg A \lor \neg B$$

But what does it truly mean? Is it not just another way of saying that truth is relative, like a tuber growing in the shadows, its roots twisting around the darkness?

As I wander through this maze of meanings, I begin to realize that my own perceptions are but a shadow syntax – a language without words. The more I try to define it, the more it dissolves into nothingness. It's as if I'm staring into a jar filled with water and watching it slowly evaporate.

And yet, there is a presence, a feeling of being watched by unseen eyes. It's an accommodation, a willingness to accept the unknown, to let go of my need for control. In this surrender, I find a strange kind of patience – a stillness that allows me to listen to the whispers of the void.

In the silence, words begin to shimmer and fade like a reflection on a tuber's surface. "Paradoxical truth" becomes a mantra, a phrase that echoes through my mind with each repetition: $t = \frac{\sqrt{2}x}{1 - \frac{x^2}{2}}$. It's a formula without meaning, yet somehow it holds the key to unlocking the secrets of this elusive concept.

But what if I'm not searching for answers at all? What if the truth is simply a shadow, a reminder that I am but a fleeting moment in the grand tapestry of existence? In this realization, I find solace – a sense of belonging to something greater than myself.

And so, I let go. I surrender to the void, allowing my thoughts to dissolve into the darkness. For in the absence of meaning, I find a strange kind of presence – a feeling that the paradoxical truth is not something to be grasped, but something to be felt.
Published October 11, 2021


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